for jungkook, it really is as simple as that. it's as simple as wanting yoongi here with him, as simple as not wanting to him to leave, especially not now that he's already touched him, even if they've been light touches, barely anything at all. it's as simple as maybe even needing the contact, at something deep down inside of him stirring and pulling because of it, like his body knows that it's what he needs, knows that it's the start of something that might be able to actually scratch that deep, insistent itch that he usually just has to wait out until it passes, until the heat finally breaks and fades and he feels like he can breathe again, even if it normally takes a matter of days at a time.
this is different, and that's the best way that jungkook can even think of to describe it, the best way that his mind can go about processing it when there are still so many things fighting for a place in his mind, in the way that he's feeling. the better thing, the best thing to do would be to let it go, not to worry about it so much, not to worry about things like whether or not it's okay, whether yoongi will be upset with him, all the thoughts that may have crowded their way to the surface and overshadowed everything else if he weren't already slipping more and more out of reality, out of coherency with every passing second. for now, it's easy enough to let his focus slip and zone in on other things, like the way that yoongi's fingers feel scratching against the base of his ear, the way that something so simple is enough to pull a shiver down his spine, to have his ear twitching slightly, to have him still trying to press up into it without even the slightest bit of hesitation.
jungkook just wants to be close to yoongi. that's what he knows more than anything else, the most important thing, even moreso now that the older man has confirmed that he can stay with him, that he will, now that his hand has found its way across the sheets and settled on his hipbone instead. it's another small touch that shivers its way across jungkook's skin, that has him arching up slightly and trying to move closer to yoongi all at the same time, powerless and open, comfortable enough with yoongi that the thought of trying to hold anything back, of not acting on instinct and impulse doesn't even cross his mind. it just feels good, and jungkook just wants more of what feels good, like maybe that will scratch the itch still steadily growing inside him. those big eyes are still trained on yoongi even as he asks those questions, and jungkook has to take just a moment to process before answering them, trying to wrap the words around what he means as much as possible, so that maybe it will be clear enough. "yoongi .. not toys. just yoongi." jungkook pauses for just a moment then, eyes still locked on yoongi's expression, question slipping from his lips before he loses all of his coherency, before even the slight hint of self-awareness he has slips away from him completely. "is it okay?"
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this is different, and that's the best way that jungkook can even think of to describe it, the best way that his mind can go about processing it when there are still so many things fighting for a place in his mind, in the way that he's feeling. the better thing, the best thing to do would be to let it go, not to worry about it so much, not to worry about things like whether or not it's okay, whether yoongi will be upset with him, all the thoughts that may have crowded their way to the surface and overshadowed everything else if he weren't already slipping more and more out of reality, out of coherency with every passing second. for now, it's easy enough to let his focus slip and zone in on other things, like the way that yoongi's fingers feel scratching against the base of his ear, the way that something so simple is enough to pull a shiver down his spine, to have his ear twitching slightly, to have him still trying to press up into it without even the slightest bit of hesitation.
jungkook just wants to be close to yoongi. that's what he knows more than anything else, the most important thing, even moreso now that the older man has confirmed that he can stay with him, that he will, now that his hand has found its way across the sheets and settled on his hipbone instead. it's another small touch that shivers its way across jungkook's skin, that has him arching up slightly and trying to move closer to yoongi all at the same time, powerless and open, comfortable enough with yoongi that the thought of trying to hold anything back, of not acting on instinct and impulse doesn't even cross his mind. it just feels good, and jungkook just wants more of what feels good, like maybe that will scratch the itch still steadily growing inside him. those big eyes are still trained on yoongi even as he asks those questions, and jungkook has to take just a moment to process before answering them, trying to wrap the words around what he means as much as possible, so that maybe it will be clear enough. "yoongi .. not toys. just yoongi." jungkook pauses for just a moment then, eyes still locked on yoongi's expression, question slipping from his lips before he loses all of his coherency, before even the slight hint of self-awareness he has slips away from him completely. "is it okay?"