kkaeppsong | [yoongi/jungkook] ; heart shaker

[yoongi/jungkook] ; heart shaker

jungkook feels like he's been waiting for this for at least a lifetime. sometimes it seems like that; he goes back and forth between feeling like he's known yoongi for years and feeling like it's only been a little while. neither option is quite right, and the length of time doesn't really matter - what matters is how comfortable jungkook feels, always has felt talking to yoongi. what matters is the way that he makes his heart race a little bit too fast and his skin flush just a little too hot, how jungkook feels every time he sees - or even thinks about - a picture of him. he has a crush. jungkook knows that. he's completely, utterly, head over heels in like with yoongi hyung and he absolutely knows it. what he isn't entirely sure of, though, is everything else that comes with it. it's hard to know what yoongi thinks, how exactly he's feeling, especially when jungkook is far, far too shy to ever just come out and ask him. but he can't help feeling like the older man making this trip, coming here just to meet him, to see him, to hang out with him - well, it's got to mean something, right?

it does mean something. that's what jungkook tells himself whenever he gets ready, and thank god he started so early in the morning even though they aren't meeting until the afternoon. it's the same struggle as always, only worse, somehow. jungkook has no idea how many times he changes before he ends up settled on something casual, normal, something like what he wears every other day - comfortable, fitted (and only slightly ripped) black jeans and an oversized white tshirt. he spends far too long fussing with his hair just to pull a beanie on over it at the last moment, stepping into his old, worn pair of timberlands on the way out the door. it's almost like he's a different person - the outside definitely doesn't match the inside, the only real giveaways that he's the very same person who posts his art online being the sketchbook he brings along in his bag and the small cluster of flowers painted on the inside of his wrist on one side, leftover from the last practice.

he makes sure to arrive early - far too early, and ends up regretting it not long after. sitting by himself in the little cafe means that he can't seem to stop looking at the door or out the windows, checking his phone even when it's still an hour away from the time they're supposed to meet. in the end, jungkook settles on pulling out his sketchbook, distracting himself by adding onto the last thing he'd been working on the night before.

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He's right--it really isn't that far. It always seemed far away in the silences between their conversations, during late nights when the bright, sunny pop of a message made Yoongi practically dive into his phone, a little too eager and a lot too smitten for his own good. In those moments Jungkook seemed almost impossibly far. He wasn't close enough to settle that thing inside of Yoongi's chest. He wasn't close enough to touch. Now that he is Yoongi doesn't quite know what to do about it--though he has no doubt in his mind that reaching across the small table and simply touching Jungkook's fingers, holding them in his own hand, as basic as feeling the younger boy here with him, would probably get his heart stuttering. It'd also probably freak the kid out before Yoongi even has a chance to properly say how he feels. And that's something he definitely doesn't want to mess up.

So it's better to keep his hands steady on the warm cup, better to keep his tone light. Not brimming with any expectations. Just being able to talk with Jungkook like this is more than what he could have ever hoped for. "Well luckily for me you said yes," Yoongi smiles, something almost shy in the way he strokes the hair at the back of his neck, dark strands just covering his eyes. They look up at the younger boy, softly teasing. "Even though you somehow thought I was joking. Twice."

it's funny, how even after jungkook found out just how close they were to each other, yoongi hadn't actually felt any closer. in a lot of ways, from day one, even though jungkook was the first one to reach out and make contact, yoongi had always felt so far out of his reach. even conversing with him online seemed like such a long shot, such an impossibility. he would have been lucky, so lucky just to get a response or two, a hint of some kind of acknowledgement here or there. he never could have imagined what they've walked into instead. this kind of easy friendship, yoongi making videos just for him, regularly making him feel all kinds of ridiculous, irrational things. the kinds of things he definitely shouldn't feel about someone who's one of his friends. but, well. jungkook just can't really help himself.

it's even harder to think about helping himself with yoongi right here, like this. still sitting right across from him, looking the way that he does, with a slight tease in his eyes regardless of the dark hair threatening to fall over them. it makes jungkook's heart skip a beat, maybe two, and without even giving him a chance to think nervous laughter bubbles up, a mixture of genuine shy amusement and embarrassment evident in his own gaze just before it drops. "i dunno, i just. i guess i wasn't sure .. why you'd want to travel, and stuff. just to meet me. you know?" he shrugs slightly, almost like its an absentminded gesture alongside the way he's fidgeting a little with his fingers, caught up in staring down at them.

It still takes Yoongi aback, that he can actually hear Jungkook laugh instead of imagining it in the backdrop, see the flustered, amused, shy expressions flicker across his face instead of cutesy emojis. He likes the sound of it, a lot actually, but he doesn't like the twinge of doubt lacing through the younger boy's hesitant words. He doesn't like the way his voice becomes questioning, as though the thought of Yoongi wanting to meet Jungkook and spend time with him was just beyond the realm of possibility. Or maybe still is. Yoongi can feel himself softening at the way he suddenly turns his attention to his fingers, fidgeting instead of meeting his gaze. And, well, maybe Jungkook doesn't exactly think this way anymore--but Yoongi isn't going to leave that to chance. "Do you remember when you told me that you wished you could see me after the New Year? Or when you would wish we could do things together in person?"

Yoongi leans forward, crossed elbows resting comfortably on the table as he positions himself a little closer to the boy across him. There's a slight tilt to his head, as if he's gently coaxing Jungkook out of worries that have no business mixing around in his head in the first place. "I had all those thoughts too," he continues on, as honest as the way he's been with Jungkook for months. As sincere as he always wants to be with him. "For a long time, actually. I'd travel a lot farther than this to meet a good friend. Especially a good friend like you."

it's not a secret that this is something that jungkook has struggled with throughout the length of their friendship, and he knows that. it's something he's spent perhaps a little bit too much time thinking about now and again, something he used to worry and feel guilt over much more frequently than he does now. because it's also something that yoongi has helped him with, in that way of his, always coaxing him into feeling better about himself, into feeling good, into being comfortable with it all. it's yet another thing to add on to the endless list of things that jungkook is grateful to yoongi for, and he's sure that he'll never get used to it.

especially not whenever yoongi is doing things like this, when he's reassuring him the very same way that he's done so many times before, only this time he's sitting right across from him. this time he's looking right at him, leaning closer, and jungkook can't resist looking up at him, studying him while he speaks, just like he can't resist the smile that creeps over his expression. the warmth that starts up and slowly spreads through him, how he nods slightly, relaxes a little bit. "i know," he says first, and then seems to catch himself a little, eyes widening and flush coming right back to his cheeks as he backtracks. "i mean! just. i know we're both friends, you know. we both like being friends. i know that's enough to be important. i mean, i really .. i'm really glad that you're my friend, so..." he trails off a little bit, clearly rambling and clearly embarrassed but otherwise unsure of what else to do about it.

More than anything, Yoongi wants Jungkook to know that he wasn't alone in those thoughts--that he still isn't alone. Yoongi's every bit as happy about this as the younger boy is. He wanted this get together just as much. And he isn't bluffing about the travel either, because the thing is he probably would have gone just about anywhere if it meant they could meet at least once. They just happened to be lucky, being only a couple hours apart. Yoongi can see the way Jungkook visibly relaxes as he goes on, his own expression softening into something that sparks his curiosity, and maybe something else. But before Yoongi can think too much about it, Jungkook interrupts himself, suddenly flustered and stuttering out some explanation he’s only half paying attention to.

Half paying attention because regardless of his own confusion about why it happened in the first place, Jungkook sure looks cute being embarrassed. Yoongi tries, and fails, to keep his fond smile in check as he watches the kid try to explain something even he seems unsure of. If he says friend one more time his blush might actually reach up to his ears, Yoongi thinks idly as he looks on in amusement. When the kid seems to lose some steam Yoongi steps in with a me too before gently pushing Jungkook’s banana bread a little closer to him. “Let’s enjoy while they're still fresh, hm?” It's half to ease his own hunger and half to give Jungkook’s nervous energy something to settle down on. Poor kid looks like he needs it.

jungkook feels like it's entirely possible that he's going to give himself whiplash at this point, swinging back and forth between feeling so relaxed and then jumping into something closer to the exact opposite without any real grasp on exactly what it is that's causing it. all he knows is that he doesn't have control over it. he's never really had control over it, over himself, over the way that he feels whenever yoongi is talking to him, no matter what the medium or the context. his heart beating out of control, his face heating up, getting nervous and tripping over his words - those are all things that he's used to. only it's usually through the relative comfort of text messages, where yoongi doesn't actually see him, where jungkook has the time to at least try and formulate something a bit more cohesive instead of stammering out things that only half make sense.

in a way, it's a comfort in itself when yoongi distracts him by directing his attention to the bread that he bought for him just a matter of minutes ago, pushing it closer. it's probably lucky all over again that jungkook is a little too caught up in his own mini almost-panic to even notice the way that yoongi was looking at him, so he finds himself nodding along easily, letting his gaze drop back down to the treat, one that he doesn't entirely have the stomach for when it's still so full of butterflies, but that doesn't mean he won't try. there's no hesitation in the way that he reaches to pull off a bite sized piece of it and carefully pop it into his mouth, making a contented little sound before he even realizes that it's fallen from his lips, and immediately going back to pull off another piece. "i can't believe i've never actually tried anything here before... when i come here, it's usually just to draw.'

Yoongi's already satisfied when Jungkook easily takes to the small distraction, breaking off a small piece of bread at his suggestion, but he isn't exactly expecting the kind of reaction he has afterwards. Sure, he's always enjoyed taking care of those close to him--it's part of the reason why assuming dominant roles in relationships has come so effortlessly for him--but it's not as if he gets this way with his friends. Jungkook is a friend, as the boy so eloquently stammered out ten seconds ago, but it's clearly different. This feeling is clearly different. Something warm pulls at Yoongi watching the younger boy so obviously enjoy the banana bread. Knowing that he bought something that pleased Jungkook, knowing that he's helping to feed him, seeing him eat so well at all with that cute little sound, brings a deeper satisfaction. Something he craves. And on top of all that Yoongi helped him do something he's never done before.

"Really? That's some self-discipline." Yoongi breaks himself from his thoughts so he can take a fork to his own pastry. The fluffy chocolate bread tastes as good as it looks, and it doesn't take long for him to dive into it. His own nerves this morning had made it difficult to eat, and now his body is quickly catching up to that fact. "Speaking of drawing--" Yoongi swipes a thumb across his lower lip, catching a smear of whipped cream. "I'm curious what you were working on before, if you feel up to sharing." Whatever it was, Jungkook had been concentrating so hard, practically hunched over his sketchpad. Having the chance to actually view some of his work up close, in person, is just too tempting.

jungkook gets a few more bites into his bread without thinking too much about it, more caught up in how much he enjoys the taste of the sweet treat than even trying to worry about eating in front of yoongi. it's just that something about the older man, the parts of him that continue to make jungkook feel so completely and totally at ease without him even realizing it. jungkook is blissfully unaware of anything that might be going through yoongi's mind, caught up in watching him try out his own choice of dessert, pleased enough that it seems like he enjoys it even if he doesn't verbalize it in the same way. his gaze lingers for a little too long on yoongi's mouth even if he doesn't entirely realize it, thoughts momentarily tripping over things that he definitely shouldn't be thinking, not helped at all by the way that yoongi reaches to swipe some forgotten whipped cream off of his lips.

there's a flush settled back nicely on his cheeks by the time that yoongi keeps up the conversation, mentions that he's curious about seeing what it is that jungkook was working on. and it surprises jungkook, though he realizes a moment later that it really probably shouldn't. yoongi has always been curious, always been interested in his art. jungkook has been showing him pictures of so many things, the prospect of showing him something up close, the real thing, has him both excited and nervous all at once. "oh! sure, i mean, of course, why not?" he rubs his hands together for a moment to dust off any lingering bread crumbs and then reaches for his bag, rustling around for just a moment before pulling out a small sketchbook and opening it up to the right page, offering it to yoongi. "it's not much - i mean, the main sketchbook i use is bigger, this one is just good for when i'm out or on the go or something. just for doodling stuff that comes to mind, you know."

Yoongi feels that same spark of excitement when Jungkook nods his okay, quickly turning to his bag and producing a small sketchbook a few moments later. The way Jungkook introduces it, he's expecting to see some cute, light-handed doodles, but the page he shows Yoongi is something else entirely. His eyes widen slightly at the realistic, intricately sketched lily taking up the whole page. Sometimes Yoongi forgets this about Jungkook, until he sees his latest work posted online. Sometimes Yoongi forgets that this kid, who seems to express himself so timidly and clumsily around him more often than not, can turn around and produce the most stunning pieces as if it's as easy as breathing. Right here, the flower looks so steady, so alive. This was done by the same hand that had wrung nervously at the thought of Yoongi visiting him, the same would that hugged him back, that sent him all those shy, sweet messages for months. It's kind of incredible when he thinks about it like that.

And yet at the same time, the beauty on the page is completely expected, because everything that Jungkook makes is beautiful. Yoongi's always been fascinated by his way of capturing life, perhaps even more so than the technical skill involved. The best art, in his humble opinion, is the art that simply makes you feel something. That moves you in some way. And Yoongi can confidently say that he's felt something every single time with Jungkook. "This is really impressive, Jungkookie. Did you just draw this from memory?" Yoongi can't help but ask, his tone incredulous as he brushes over the lily leaves with the pads of his fingers, tracing the spotted design.

it's a strange feeling, jungkook thinks, because yoongi has seen so much of his work. he's seen so many little things that he's posted throughout the last few months, such a range of different abilities, subject matters - even if most of it always does tend to come back to flowers, in one way or another. but still, jungkook has never actually seen yoongi look at any of his work. he's never seen the kind of reaction that it pulls, has never been able to get that side of it all. so he finds himself looking at his expression without even realizing it, only to pull his gaze away with something like a shy little shrug as soon as yoongi speaks up, his cheeks starting to heat up and it's hard to tell if it's from the praise or from the small, affectionate way that yoongi just said his name.

"yeah. i mean, it's just a really simple kind of sketch, really! but, um, thank you. i mean, i'm glad you like it." he pauses for a moment, and then seems to remember something before he can go off on another embarrassed ramble, turning to reach and scavenge through his bag once again. he produces a folder a moment later, a simple, cutely colored manila file that he offers to yoongi as well. "this is um, that piece that i made for you? the one with the heart and everything. just.. i mean, if you wanted it. i said i'd like to give it you, since it's yours, so..."

The answer doesn't exactly surprise Yoongi, nor the casual way Jungkook brushes past it, as if it's a small matter--but still. Not using a picture to base this off of, no other frame of reference besides what he already had in mind? It's still incredible to him. He supposes that's just the kind of artist Jungkook is, humble with what he clearly excels in, and Yoongi warms to that just as much as the small, pleased thank you. It's nice to be able to properly praise Jungkook like this in person, so much more gratifying than a few short lines in person. He still feels bad in a way about the gift he had shown Yoongi all those weeks ago, how stilted Yoongi felt in his expression of gratitude. What Jungkook did for him was worth more than a simple thank you over text--

And then, by some crazy stroke of coincidence, Jungkook is reaching back in his bag for that very same piece. Yoongi's heart does a little somersault, watching the younger boy place a pretty pastel file in his hands, his words trailing off in that same shy, skittish way he's slowly becoming more used to. This time Yoongi knows exactly what's inside, there's no guessing, but the artwork still manages to still everything else around him. There's the heart, beautifully intricate, grounded in reality--and the imaginative, larger-than-life creations spilling out. Everything blooming, unable to be contained. Everything hopeful. The right words still don't come to him, sitting there holding what is certainly the best gift he's ever received. Even the way it's packaged is thoughtful, Jungkook placing it in protective casing, carrying it inside something cute, with such care. "You--you're honestly a really great artist," he finally manages, for the first time today finding his own words a little clumsy. Maybe even flustered. He looks back up at Jungkook, a gummy smile just coming through. "I don't have any art at home and this--I love it even more now. Thank you. I'll have to send you a picture when I put it up."

for a split second, jungkook wonders if maybe it's too much. maybe it's a little bit odd, to suddenly produce something like that, to actually be handing it over to yoongi without actually asking whether or not he would want it first. but those worries barely last, don't even have any time at all to stick before something else is pushing them right back out of the way because, no. jungkook knows yoongi better than that. this is the same yoongi that he's been talking about for months. it's the same yoongi that he's had so many conversations with, who's talked to him about his art so many times. the same yoongi who takes a few moments to look at the piece all over again before stuttering slightly over an answer, smiling in a way that makes jungkook's heart somersault more violently, that makes his stomach flutter with a particularly active round of butterflies, that instantly makes him wish it was something that he could see more of.

he doesn't even realize that his own face is heating up all over again, smile stretching over his expression, both shy and pleased, excited all at once. "oh, i'm - um, thank you! i'm just .. glad that you still like it. really. and that.. i can actually give it to you. and - oh! one more thing!" he reaches for the bag yet one more time, a little bit more rustling, this time leading him to produce the small, miniature canvas decorated with a galaxy that he had painted, once again while thinking of yoongi, and sent him a picture of for the new year. "um, i thought maybe, if you wanted this one, too - you could have it. i mean, you don't have to take them! but, you know." he's caught up in a ramble again, another shy shrug following his words, almost as if he's gone from pleased at the praise and gratefulness from yoongi to unsure of himself all over again in less than a matter of minutes.

Objectively it's pretty funny, the sense of deja vu as Jungkook suddenly hops back into his bag, rummaging around for yet another item--and if Yoongi weren't so happy and flustered he may have started laughing at how ridiculous this probably looks to everyone else around them. Jungkook may as well have a bottomless bag of art for him (which, in all honesty, Yoongi would not have any problem with). He's still admiring the heart drawing when Jungkook offers him the smaller piece, a miniature galaxy painted on canvas--his endearing Happy New Year to Yoongi. It's simpler than the drawing but no less mesmerizing, blues and purples bursting across the frame so prettily. Seeing the pieces together in his lap just has the smile stretching wider across Yoongi's face. Thankfully the jitteriness have settled in his chest, now just left with the same warm feeling that's been lingering for a while now.

The question that's been on his mind for months is already on the tip of his tongue, even as he thanks Jungkook again mid-ramble, laughter low in his throat. Of course he wants it, he reassures. He wants to keep everything that Jungkook gives him. The thought of bringing back even a small piece of Jungkook to his home, the place he lives and works, and then works some more...it's something that selfishly feels right. Like Jungkook's influence should already belong there anyway. Like Yoongi can have some part of him close by. It's a strange thing to think, so Yoongi thanks him again, voice a little quieter now, gentler with the fresh wave of nerves coming over the younger boy again. "--have you ever given someone your artwork before?"

there's no rhyme or reason to it, really - it just happens. jungkook can't control it, the way that he gets nervous here and there, the way that it rises and then spikes without seeming to have any particular trigger. maybe it's just the fact that he can't help but continually notice the fact that yoongi is here, right here with him, every so often. maybe it's the feeling that comes from seeing all the reactions to his artwork up close and in person, the way that the anxieties curve and then get resolved so easily, almost effortlessly, with the way that yoongi accepts everything so genuinely, whole heartedly, the way that it just keeps him smiling like that. it almost makes jungkook wish that he had brought something more, that maybe he had thought to do something, make something else for him - a surprise, something to give yoongi that he hadn't actually seen through pictures before. but then, this is probably enough for now, he tells himself, and maybe there will be more times like this, more chances to give yoongi things if he wants them, more opportunities to make him smile like that, to feel this kind of unique satisfaction settle right down into the middle of his chest.

it's enough to get jungkook to stop rambling, at least, just hearing yoongi laugh like that, the way that he reassures him, seeing how genuine his expression is and knowing there absolutely isn't one reason in the world why he shouldn't trust him. that's all before the question comes, gentler, and jungkook considers for a moment before responding. "actually, i've never thought about it until you just said that, but .. no, i haven't. this is the first time. and when i drew that other piece for you.. that was the first time i did something like that, too." he smiles, almost a little bit sheepishly, like he's unsure what the reaction to that information will be. "i really liked doing it though! it was nice, both of them. i figured i'd have to get the chance to give them to you one day."

Yoongi has a feeling he already knows the answer to his question. But he's still curious when that thoughtful look crosses Jungkook's face, when he actually seems to consider that question to himself quietly. He looks cute. Jungkook is just insanely cute, even more so now that Yoongi has all of him to consider now. His response is just as cute, but something about the way he offers that slow confession, smiling all shy, admitting to drawing like that for the first time essentially because of Yoongi...it makes him feel weak in a way he's not used to. Yoongi meets his smile softly even as the rest of him sort of malfunctions at the truth. So Jungkook really doesn't do this with other people, lavishing his time and effort on them in the form of intricate works of art. That has to mean something, doesn't it? Yoongi's sure that it does. Didn't every single video he's ever dedicated to Jungkook?

It's only then that he realizes how close he is to the younger boy. Jungkook had moved his chair a little closer to help hand off the art, and Yoongi had unconsciously leaned in, pulling his own chair forward. Suddenly he's very aware of the fact that their bodies seem like they're being pulled inward, gazes locked like a pair of infatuated schoolboys. Yoongi forces himself to look back down at the art for a moment, perhaps a beat too late, but he doesn't lean back--not quite yet. "The trip was already worth it for you," he says honestly. "But even more so because of these. I feel a little empty-handed."

jungkook can't help wondering suddenly whether or not it's strange, this whole thing - is it strange? did yoongi ask him that because it's strange? at this point, he's more than likely to give himself whiplash with how much he's going back and forth, calm and sure of himself one second, completely at a loss for much of anything at all the next. it's borderline ridiculous and he's aware of it, but, well - that's simply how he is. no, that's simply what yoongi does to him. jungkook knows that. he's known it for a long time now, and the fact that they're here, in person, that yoongi is right in front of him, well - it's only expected that it would mean it's even harder to shake off, right?

because it is. it's hard to shake off feeling any kind of nervous, to ward off the butterflies when it seems that anything that yoongi does, says, any hint of a smile from the older man is enough to send them off into a tizzy all over again. it's probably a good thing that jungkook doesn't become entirely aware of just how close they are, that they've simply been sitting here, gazes locked onto one another for perhaps a little bit too long until it's already broken, and yoongi's next words are distracting him from having any kind of extreme reaction to it. instead, jungkook is focused on shaking his head immediately. "no, no! please don't feel like that - really, i don't. i don't want you to feel obligated or guilty or something because of them! i just. wanted to give them to you, since i had the chance. i mean, meeting you like this is.." is more than enough, he wants to say. is better than any gift i could ever receive from anyone, is exactly what i've been wanting for months now. instead, the words seem to stutter and die off on his tongue, far too embarrassed and suddenly self aware to get them out, the flush coming back to burn even more insistently at his cheeks.

Yoongi's starting to get to use to these skittish moments Jungkook falls into every few minutes, the pattern in them. The younger boy is shy by nature of course, but this sort of flustered energy seems to be especially triggered by the subject of them, even in the context of being friends. If there's even another context at all. In all honesty, Yoongi can't fault him for the nerves, because it's the same thing he's been wondering about a lot on his own lately. He knows it isn't fair to not talk with Jungkook about it, to not share what he's feeling and thinking about him, but...well. Yoongi watches with a little quirk to his lips as the younger boy rushes through his words only to trail off quietly. The thought is left unfinished, but Yoongi can pretty much fill in the rest. He knows it was going to be a sweet sentiment.

But what if Jungkook doesn't find what Yoongi wants to say to be just sweet sentiments? What if it's actually too much to deal with? Yoongi can't shake off the persistent urge he has to protect Jungkook, despite the equally strong urge to just lay it all out on the table. Having calm, honest conversations is best, he's told the boy before. Always. "I understand," he says gently, catching on the boy's blush, "and thank you again." Yoongi reaches out across the table with the drawing and painting, carefully offering them back. "Could you still keep them in your bag for now? I don't wanna mess them up by carrying them around uncovered." Because he hopes they'll have the chance to do more today. Because he wants to do as much as possible with Jungkook at his side. It's a much more neutral topic to turn to now, and maybe that's for the best. Yoongi clears his throat, picking up his Americano before immediately thinking better of it. It's gone completely cold. "So, was there anything else you wanted to do today?"

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jungkook kind of hates it sometimes, if he's being honest with himself. how flustered he gets, how difficult it can be to say what's on his mind. it's something he's struggled with for longer than he's known yoongi, but also something that's undoubtedly triggered by the older man as well in a way that he's never really experienced before. sure, he's had crushes, he's been interested, he's dated other people here and there throughout the years. but someone like yoongi, someone who feels so perfect, so unattainable and yet so close, comfortable. jungkook knows he's never had anything quite like this before, he's never felt this way about someone else, friend or otherwise. and it's likely that that keeps him from saying anything about it, for fear that bringing it up would make things weird, for respect that they are friends - just friends. jungkook reassures himself of that consistently, knows realistically that he can't be the first, can't be the only person that's ever felt something like this for yoongi, especially given the nature of his content. and yoongi has expressed on more than one occasion how nice it is to have that friendship, that understanding - keeping that is more important than anything else, as far as jungkook is concerned.

yoongi understands him, of course he does, the same as always. and at first jungkook is confused, only for a split second, before yoongi's words catch up to him and he understands why he's offering him the artwork back. he accepts it immediately, nodding with an "oh, right, of course!" before busying himself with carefully tucking the pieces back into his bag, safe and sound, right where they were before he pulled them out in the first place. he's just finishing up when the next question hits him, and it leaves jungkook a little surprised, hopeful, feeling that insistent fluttering all over again. "oh! um, i don't know.. i hadn't thought of anything, but, if there's anything else you want to see in the city while you're here, we could do it! i mean, depending on when you need to get back, or what your plans are, you know..."

Yoongi, of course, has never once been to Busan. All of his family lives in Daegu or Seoul, and it's not as if he makes a priority out of traveling when most of his free time is dedicated to holing up inside with his videos and schoolwork. The quiet solitude of work is comfortable, something he's more than familiar with. But he didn't come all this way to see Jungkook, they didn't have all these months of build up, only for him to turn around after only a couple hours together at a coffee shop. He wouldn't be satisfied with that. For someone who keeps his social engagements to a minimum, who prefers to stay at home with what he knows, all Yoongi really wants to do right now is spend his entire day in Busan with Jungkook. He doesn't so much care what they do or where they go. He knows, because of the whipped man he is, that he'd go along with anything Jungkook suggests. As long as it meant stretching out this time with Jungkook, Yoongi's all in.

Realistically, though, Jungkook isn't going to suggest anything he wants to do on his own. The kid's too sweet and accommodating for that, which is made all the more apparent with his pleasantly surprised answer, how naturally he comes back to what's best for Yoongi. It has him reaching in his pocket and pulling out a single train ticket for emphasis. "I booked the 10 pm train," he says, laughing a little. "My plans back home are nonexistent." And then, remembering something he had heard Namjoon mention a couple times before--really, grasping for any ideas at all that might interest the younger boy, who's clearly lived here his whole life--he comes out with, "Gukje Market sounds cool? You know, just walking around the city. Eating more, eating a lot, probably." The thought that Jungkook himself might be busy pops up, that maybe he was just too polite to mention it at first. "I don't want to interrupt any of your plans either though--I can explore on my own if you need to head out, no big deal."

in a way, it's funny that the two of them hadn't really discussed any of this in any more detail - how long yoongi was staying, what they were going to do, whether or not the plans would extend into anything more. maybe it was just in case, just to feel out how things would go, but jungkook is sure that there's no way that he ever could have been anything but completely comfortable and happy around yoongi. they've been talking for far too long for anything to change that, and it means that whenever yoongi pulls out his ticket with that little laugh, confirming that the entire day is theirs if they want it that way, it feels even better. jungkook can't help but laugh a little bit right along with him, also because he's much the same - plans aren't something he comes by often, preferring to spend his time on his own, working on something or, well, talking to the older man. suddenly it seems a little bit obvious that they both should have known that would be the case.

it is nice, though, and helpful that yoongi has at least one idea of something that sounds interesting to him. just before he's making much the same kind of comment about jungkook's schedule, one that immediately has him shaking his head slightly. "no! i mean, i'm not busy at all. i don't have anything else going on today, so, i mean, i'm free for as long as you want me to be!" it comes out in a little bit of a rush, one that has him turning just slightly pink, another one of those shy little smiles, but he presses himself to continue on anyway. "we can go to the market! i don't think it should be too busy around this time of day. there's definitely a lot to eat .. if you like seafood, i can show you some of the best places!"

Just in case was exactly what was on Yoongi's mind--but not for himself. He's happy that he can call Jungkook one of his close friends, that the two of them talk almost every day, have built up a level of comfort with each other that frankly doesn't happen all that often with other people in Yoongi's life. But at the end of the day they're still just meeting for the first time. They met online, and while Yoongi has nothing against the origin of their friendship, it's always good to exercise some caution meeting face to face. Yoongi didn't explicitly share this with Jungkook, but that was sort of the point--he didn't want to decide how their day was going to go, how it should go. Or even how Jungkook should feel about him. If for any reason he didn't want to spend more time with Yoongi, if something didn't sit right with him, if Yoongi didn't end up being the person he thought he was...well, that was that. The last thing Yoongi wants is to tell Jungkook what he's supposed to feel.

Which makes it all the more satisfying when Jungkook immediately shakes off his concern, making it clear he's just as free as Yoongi. He's also relieved the younger boy doesn't find his suggestion strange or boring. The aquarium route seems a little too touristy, the beaches too populated, shopping centers too expensive, but walking around an outdoor market with Jungkook, just being in his company, sounds pretty perfect to him. "You definitely need to show me the best places," Yoongi agrees, finding Jungkook's excitement way too infectious and adorable. "Do you want to head out soon?" He's already devoured his pastry, and while he doesn't mind waiting for as long as Jungkook needs to finish up, the excitement of more is starting to tug at his chest.

if simply meeting yoongi at all seemed like it was too good to be true, well, the idea of spending the whole day with him is something that jungkook can barely comprehend. but it's something that's going to happen, they've already decided, they're starting to plan out how things can go, and jungkook feels a rush of excited anticipation similar to what he was feeling earlier in the day coming over him. but this time it isn't because of any uncertainty. he doesn't have to worry about how things are going to go with yoongi, what meeting him face to face will be like, what he will or won't say. all there is is the excitement of spending more time together, doing something else, getting to know each other that much more - and spending time with someone who he already feels so close to. it sounds perfect, jungkook thinks to himself. absolutely perfect. and as soon as they've decided to do it, he's all but ready to head out as soon as yoongi is. he doesn't even realize that he never managed to touch his hot chocolate thanks to the nerves - at least he neatly pops the last bit of the bread into his mouth, dusting his fingers off with a smile and a nod, making sure to chew and swallow every bit of food in his mouth before responding with a "sure, let's head out now, if you want?"

it isn't far, and doesn't take long for them to make their way to the market. it's within comfortable walking distance, and jungkook is pleased enough to find that he doesn't feel uncomfortable walking with yoongi, talking idly about things, pointing out some things along the way that he thinks the older man might find interesting to take note of. it just feels .. nice. comfortable in the same way that most everything else does with the older man, enough so that jungkook feels himself slowly opening up that bit more, starting to shake off some of the lingering shyness overall, though it still creeps up from time to time, depending on what yoongi says or the way that he looks at him. jungkook himself is still finding it hard not to look at yoongi too much, though the walk is decidedly a good distraction for that. it's even better once they finally start to approach the market, and jungkook nods his head towards it once it's just up ahead, smiling.

"that's the market!" he announces, probably unnecessarily, but he can't exactly help himself. "so, what do you want to start with? the food? or .. everything else?"

Yoongi knows he's made the right choice as soon as they leave the little cafe, the cute image of a beaming Jungkook dusting off his fingers, readying himself to leave lingering with him as he and the younger boy step onto the street. Just walking together like this is better than any late night conversation. He finds himself being an all too willing audience for Jungkook's show and tell, listening to his comments about the city with genuine curiosity--and perhaps genuine affection as well, watching the boy's big eyes light up as he talks. Happy. Relaxed. Yoongi feels he could spend hours just like this, talking with Jungkook about nothing in particular, going nowhere in particular. In fact, he almost starts to forget where exactly they're going in the first place until they turn onto a different street and the sprawling market seems to suddenly bursts out around them. It's almost too much to take in all at once, covering several blocks as far as Yoongi can see. And--oh yeah, he was the one who suggested this, didn't he?

He turns back to Jungkook, considering his question for all of two seconds before offering an easy smile. "Everything else." And then, without thinking much about it, his hand finds the younger boy's, holding it lightly, companionably in his own. "Come on," he says, gently tugging Jungkook in the direction of the very first stand that happened to catch his eye--that one, right there by the produce and housewares. Huge baskets of flowers, every kind imaginable as far as what Yoongi can tell, spill out over long tables, crammed together so that it looks like a miniature oasis amidst the rest of the city. Yoongi can't exactly say why he was drawn to this one first--maybe because of the beauty of the flowers, or the rich, interesting colors. Maybe because they always seem to hold such inspiration for the younger boy still at his side.

of course, jungkook would have been happy with absolutely anything that yoongi wanted to do in the city. it wouldn't have mattered if he had listed off the same, typical touristy type attractions that jungkook himself is far too familiar with, or the aquariums that he's gone to with his family ever since he was a child. dimply doing anything at all with yoongi would have been a fun, new experience, so much more than worth it. any and all of it would have been welcomed with open arms, but something like this is even better, because it piques jungkook's interest at the same time. because it's been a while since he himself has been around here, because there's always something new to discover, because it's just as relaxed and casual as everything else is.

that is, until yoongi is smiling at him like that, reaching for his hand a matter of moments later. it makes him pause, makes his heart skip a beat before rabbiting forcefully in his chest, makes him feel quite like there might be some part of him - or several parts of him - that are short circuiting. it's nothing special, nowhere near too much, just enough, just something friendly, something easy, and yet jungkook can't fight the flush burning over his cheeks, the kind of stupid, giddy excitement that swoops through him just from that. by the time he comes back from it all they're already stood in front of a stall, and jungkook blinks an array of different flowers into focus, so many colors, varieties, not to mention the fragrance that comes from them all. it leaves him wide eyed, looks incredible, even as something so simple, almost as if he were the one traveling out of his hometown. "wow," he breathes out lightly. "they're really gorgeous, aren't they?"

Standing here surrounded by all these beautiful flowers, Yoongi can see, perhaps for the very first time, some of what Jungkook must see in them. He's never exactly stopped and this much paid attention before, not really, but now it feels like he can't do anything else. There's something exuberant, joyful about the washes of color, petals turning lightly in the breeze, as carefree as a summer afternoon. Is this what Jungkook tries to capture? Is it just the beautiful forms? Is it something else? Yoongi's mesmerized as he tosses around different ideas--and apparently he's not alone. Yoongi can feel the younger boy's shift in focus before he even breathes out that single word, the way he quiets. Standing shoulder to shoulder, hands still clasped together, they both take in the stand. "Yeah," Yoongi nods, "They really are."

One, in particular, catches his eye after a moment. A bunch of yellow flowers spill out of a hanging basket above them, something he had nearly missed before--and he's instantly struck by the strange familiarity of them. Which is odd, because he knows next to nothing about flowers. The fact that these should stand out in any way to him doesn't make sense. But then the realization comes, another smile tugging at his lips as he uses his free hand to bring down a single stem from the basket. The one that has such an interesting likeness to a painting he's never forgotten about. Presenting the flower to Jungkook, he asks, "Doesn't this remind you of the first picture you posted online? The flowers you painted on your hand? It's still one of my favorites."

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